Fake it until you make it

So my best friend tells me to “fake it until I make it”.  Meaning that I need to fake that I have all of the confidence even if I don’t and then eventually I will.  She was giving me the advice in relation to a guy, which is a whole other story.  But it got me thinking, that’s basically how you have to approach all of life.  You just have to fake it until you make it.  With law school, I act confident as shit so that people think that I know what I’m doing (I don’t).  With CrossFit I don’t have to fake it until I make it, I can suck badly and its totally cool because everyone sucks at something and yet at the same time I have people who will help me and cheer me on.  But what’s throwing me off at CrossFit currently is a guy, which is super annoying because its supposed to be my zen place.  But I’m worried about looking like too much of a spaz too try my best anymore, which is annoying me.  It probably doesn’t help that I’m watching ‘He’s just not that into you’ right now, but I digress…

Basically, I go twice a day to my gym.  On my second round, I get to see the night gang and they are all pretty awesome.  I’m having a Endurance WOD date with Gary on Tuesday, he’s a hilarious man.  But generally, my second round is my time, its my time to work on skill work and just get into the zone.  So what’s a good way to throw that off? By having said cute guy be there when I’m there and be there again on my Saturday when that’s my time to suck at Oly lifting and get better!!

Gah, I can’t handle this level of stress.   So what I think I’m going to do is, treat him like a girl.  Girls are easy to be around because I’m clearly not trying to impress them and get them to try to date me (that was super weird sounding), but I think the point has been made.  So basically I’m set on bs’ing my way through my first year of law school and hoping that I am able to make my goal of getting onto the Law Review and I’m going to not worry about a guy.  Instead I am going to work on becoming the most badass version of myself I can, which involves a lot of time at CrossFit!

So until later, TTFN.

Tryng new things

Which basically means trying to be social, well to at least improve my human skills.  And by human skills I mean being able to effectively communicate with other humans and not be weird.  Something that isn’t a strong suit of mine.  I’m kind of really antisocial with most of the other people who are 1Ls.  But I have started talking to a few people who I think are pretty coo so I’m improving a little bit.  I’m falling more and more in love with my box… can you tell? 10693546_1552580228304100_1520663380_n

We had a town hall meeting last night and potluck, which is basically us eating food and then talking about all sorts of odds and ends thins that has to do with the gym.  I made paleo brownies and no one believed me at first because they looked like regular brownies, but they were a hit! 10546841_753519758039797_107385845_n

Oh and clearly someone decided that I missed an ingredient on the list and decided they were actually pot brownies.  Much hilarity ensued.  Also, I spent some serious time chatting with Stefan’s wife Karin who I absolutely love because she is super down to earth and cool. And she gave me a good idea to cut out dairy products.  I’ve been having some stomach issues or feelings of voming-ness after I have my milk so I’m going to just let my stash run out and not buy anymore this week and just try not having any and see how I feel.  So we will see what happens with that.

On another note, my Mom and Granny are visiting this Saturday and they are bringing me food and taking me out to lunch- can you tell my mind centers around food?!?  So that’s an exciting thing, it will give me a break from the homework and stresses of law school.  So that’s basically it for now.
So until later, TTFN.

The library is my second…no First home

So my dad called me today and asked if I was at home and I said; “No, I’m at the library”.  When I realized that if I take sleeping out of the equation I’m pretty sure that I spend more time in the library than I do at my own house.  I spend at least 5 hours there every day after my classes so that I don’t have to bring anything home with me and I can keep myself from getting too stressed.  And its only been a week, but I feel pretty good about the schedule I’ve set up for myself.  Let me break it down now for you beautiful people;

Daily Schedule: 6 a.m. get up and get ready to hit up the wod

6:30-8 a.m. I’m usually at CrossFit Journey (mainly messing around)

8:30-10 a.m I’m eating massive amounts of food, packing massive amounts of food for the day since I don’t come home until 5 or 6, and basically getting ready for the day.

10:30-2/3 I’m in class (More Socratic method than you can handle)

3-6 Library for homework (I get out of class earlier generally so I get more homework time in)

6-8 food and relaxing

9 p.m. BEDTIME! (I’m a grandma)

So this is my schedule basically every day.  I’m pretty repetitive in what I do everyday and with what I eat everyday.  I’m clearly not very exciting, but that’s what’s up when it comes to law school.  Plus, because I spend such a large amount of time in the library every day on the weekends I don’t have to spend as much time and I take Sundays completely off.  Sundays are my off from working out and homework day, they are basically the day where I spend the entirety of it in bed watching t.v. #notashamed.

On Wednesdays I mix it up a little by going to CrossFit Journey at night too for Olympic Lifting skill work, but all that does is make me pass out even earlier.  Other than that everything is going well.  I found this awesome article about one of my two CrossFit women idols; Camille Leblanc-Bazinett.  I’ve always liked her, but I like her even more finding out that she had issues with anorexia. http://www.fitnessmagazine.com/blogs/fitstop/2014/08/29/fitness/eat-like-crossfit-champ-camille-leblanc-bazinet/

So my other idol is Lauren Fisher, even though she is 2 years younger than me.  I think her work ethic and drive is just incredible, but that’s just me.

Basically, these women inspire me and they help me get through the tough wods.  Like the one we had on Friday, which was called “Death by Backsquat” in which every minute you’d do squats according to the minute —> minute 1- 1 squat, minute 2-2 squats.  However fast you finish whatever is left of the minute is your recovery time.  And you go until you can’t finish the prescribed reps for that minute.  I made it through a full 9 minutes and then on the 10th minute I only made it like half-way through the round.  It was rough and my legs definitely felt it the next day.

So that is literally it for now, until later TTFN.

 

So clearly…

I haven’t been as good as I said I was going to be.  CLEARLY!  However, I’m here to remedy the fact that I haven’t been around in like 2 weeks, but y’all should probably anticipate not hearing from me for another two weeks because my first OFFICIAL day of law classes begins tomorrow.  So I’m pretty much 50/50 at this point, as in 50% psyched for classes to finally begin and 50% nervous to get called on and look like a complete idiot.  But either way I’m going to have to pretty much take things in stride because there is no going back now.  My basic goals from week to week will be; to get my homework done ahead/on time, not to get to crazy/stressed, and to hit up CrossFit Journey everyday.  The last I think is important because well, having a release from stress is just as important as staying on top of my work, mainly because it helps to make goal number 2 a reality. 9363_567954146621862_2032000581_n

Anywhoser, CrossFit Journey– that’s a thing… I have really enjoyed it so far.  I’ve found that compared to my last two boxes, I get far more hands-on coaching and the two coaches (Stephen and Dawn) push me.  Which may sound kind of weird that I’m so happy about it, but I have a problem with pushing myself sometimes, but its easier when someone else does it.  I basically feel really comfortable there, and I got myself an unlimited membership at the student rate. Dawn showed me a gray hoodie that they will hopefully be selling again soon because I really want it, it’s wicked nice.  But for now I have satisfied myself with a CrossFit Journey tank; 10601711_719508554801663_382814287_n

So that’s good.  I’ve pretty much stayed in line with my workout in the morning routine, so I generally get there at like 6:30 a.m.  and I’m there most days until 8 a.m.  I’m lucky that most of my classes don’t start until 10:30 and only a two days a week they start at 9:30, so I have plenty of time to get ready and eat my hearty breakfast that I love.

Other than that, most of my day after that is spent in class and then in the library doing homework.  I took a tip from a 3L and only work until 5p.m. or 6p.m. at night so that I have a few hours to myself before I go to bed at the grandma time of 9p.m.
And I have now literally detailed my entire daily schedule so that nothing is left to the imagination.  I am extremely boring now and I am completely ok with it.  My goal for this year is to make it through without failing and to get the grades to make it onto the Law Review.  Which for those of you who don’t know, only includes the top 10% of each law class.  So it’s a pretty big goal for me to have, but I am going to try to do it all the same.

So that’s it for now, until later TTFN.

I’ve been terrible this summer…

I have no way around my lack of posting besides the fact that I’ve really sucked this summer.  I guess it’s because I’ve been working a lot, working out a lot, and trying to be a normal person who has friends ahha.  I’ve successfully completed the goals I had for myself this summer, I read about 2 full classics, I got new PR’s on all of my lifts and managed to improve my DU’s and gymnastic skills, I’ve increased my fruit, veggie and water intake per day.  Basically, I feel pretty happy with what I’ve managed to accomplish this summer.  I even managed to finish 2nd during a WOD! Something that I’ve never accomplished before.  Also, I went to the Dr. for my annual check up and I’ve gained 15 lbs. since last August, I’d like to think it’s all muscle, but I recognize that some of it is probably fat.

Also, I watched/cheered my friend Christine on to her first (probably not last) Ironman finish.  She did it in Lake Placid, where let me tell you the course is not the most fun thing in the world. 10525845_10152328518258722_1245276808304383937_n

Otherwise, I’ve just been working a lot- I got a second job in a dog groomer/day care where I learned a lot about dogs, made some good money, and had a lot of fun! Now, I’m mainly focused on law school.  I move into my apartment on Saturday, I have orientation all of next week and then classes start on the 27th.  I’ll miss my friends at Latham Crossfit and the coaches, but I am excited to join a new box and meet new people and hopefully get stronger.  It’s still hard for me to believe that I’ve been crossfitting for a whole year now.  Time sure flies!

Going off to law school, I have a lot to look forward to.  But I also can’t wait for two of my good friends’ wedding in October, in which I am going to be a bridesmaid.  My first friends to get married! Now if only I could get a boyfriend….

Haha other than that I lead a pretty boring life.  There’s not much going on for me this last week at home except packing, working out, and trying not to hyperventilate in anticipation of school.  So I hope that I’ve given y’all a nice enough tid bit  on my life to keep you occupied until I go to school and have more to tell you!

So until later, TTFN.

Whelp its been awhile…

And I’m terribly sorry about that! I’ve been busy with working out/training, getting all of my affairs in order for law school, figuring out my life, and working.  So I will catch y’all up real quick and we shall go from there!

First things first, law school yeah that’s happening in about a month.  And I think that the ‘shitting bricks’ feeling is finally starting to kick in.  I’ve had to worry about my loans and figuring out financials, books, class schedule, packing, making sure I have everything I need.  Plus, I’m taking a day trip with my Dad this week.  We will be driving there so I know that I won’t get lost since you know I’m an adult now and have to know how to navigate in the unknown.  So all of that’s going on.

Next, working.  Yeah I work at Tj Maxx, the pay sucks and the hours aren’t great, but I generally enjoy my co-workers so that makes it a bit better. The way I look at is, even thought it is a crappy job at least I get money and I’ll be done with it soon.  It’s not my forever job that I intend to have. liftbitch

What’s up next? Working out/training! Right so I’m still at Latham Crossfit, and on days when I’m not there I’m at ABC gym mainly working on my Olympic lifts and squats and such.  With the program I am on I’ve been doing a lot of heavy work; low reps, high weights and it seems to be paying off.  Yesterday I went for a total lifts in 3; strict OH press, back squat, and deadlift.  I got 65 lb. for OH press, 150 lb. for back squat, and 185 lb. for deadlift.  My back squat and deadlift both went up around 10 lbs. from a few weeks ago when I last tried for a one rep max so I’m pretty happy about that.
I still have a lot of work to do technique and upper body wise, but I intent to join a crossfit gym at law school so it will be alright. I’ve already decided it will be my hour a day that has nothing to do with studying!

Figuring out my life, yeah that’s more difficult.  I have some goals for myself this summer, which have included getting PR’s, learning to love running again (a story for another day), to read a few classics (in the process), etc.  So that’s that.

I believe that I have now caught y’all up to speed on what’s going on with me.  I’ll try not to let it be so long before I blog again. My computer is busted and I have to get it fixed so it will depend upon that.

So until later, TTFN.

Graduation/Being Back Home

10406560_10203022008524066_2398528504349522097_nSo well I graduated this past Sunday- I even gave a speech!  I’m now officially a college graduate of SUNY Potsdam with a Bachelor’s in Politics and minors in Pre-law and Environmental Studies.  Everyone keeps asking me if I feel any different and I don’t.  Maybe if that was the end of my collegiate career I would, but knowing that I’m going to law school in the fall has me in a calm mode.  For now anyways, I know that as it gets closer I will be freaking out about readings and my classes, etc.  Everyone has the utmost confidence in my ability to make it and I’m pretty confident myself, but I’m nervous at the same time.  Oh well, nervous jitters I think are probably normal. 10325246_10203022008284060_7945361957635466487_n

My life this summer basically consists of working at the Maxx again and working out.  I was a little concerned with how my workouts would go over the summer.  I mean I don’t mind doing my crossfit workouts by myself, but it’s way more fun with friends.  So bring in Latham Crossfit! I found it on google, I creeped on facebook, then I messaged the coach Luke, and went and joined and have had 2 crossfit workouts there so far. 1391777_529635337126268_898449131_n

I really like it because I’m getting a lot of good instruction there, like at my other gym I learned everything but I didn’t get constant supervision telling me what to fix and here I do.  And two I used to do most of my workouts by myself and now I’m doing all of them with someone else.  It is way more motivating to have someone struggling through the workout with you compared to trying to do it by yourself.

Plus Luke is pretty nice, really knowledgeable, and makes the gym a comfortable space so that I can try things and make a complete ass of myself while trying new things.  Like the other day when we were working on handstand walks I could get up and then I kept flipping over.  Luke helped me figure out how not to kick as hard so I could stay up longer.
I literally just love it at this gym.  I didn’t think I’d find one like the one at school where I’m completely comfortable, but I think I have.

Last night, I hit a new snatch PR- 75 lbs., breaking my old PR by 10 lbs! Luke decided to freak me out by telling me right before I was about to attempt it and I was like gee thanks now I’m nervous, to which he said “oh nevermind! It’s not heavier!” I just kinda rolled my eyes.  I have so much fun at this gym and it isn’t even funny!

So that’s basically it for now.  I’ve graduated, I’m working during the summer, I’m doing crossfit at this awesome new gym, and I’m going to law school in the fall.

So until later, TTFN.